He didn't notice me, but I haven't excited myself. Unlike when I'm with Johnny. Maybe more, but mainly differently. Thoughts raced through my mind about the bird, what it would be like to have it in him…, but also how to walk around it. It was out of the question for me to return to the room. I just needed to pee. Maybe the excitement is due to the feeling of a full bladder, I thought, when suddenly my father-in-law turned off the TV and stood up. He turned on me with the bird in his hand and remained scalded. Our eyes met again, as they had a moment ago in the room. Only the moment was longer. About power. He was the first to recover after a few seconds. He quickly pulled on his sweatpants.