All my friends had a boyfriend and slowly began to give birth to children, and because of her timidity I was still alone. I realized that I hadn't actually accumulated much love experience. There was no one with. So my only nightly entertainment was erotic fantasies accompanied by beautiful orgasms caused by my own hand. When the Internet came, masturbating and dating were a bit easier, but I still couldn't keep a guy for more than a few weeks. I felt abandoned and horny, so I was ashamed to meet normally. I was such a quiet deer, I rather communicated via computer than in reality.